Saturday, October 9, 2010
I have so much recharging to do! After a whirlwind first two weeks full of stress, emotions (good and bad), housing, money, sightseeing, moving, meeting people, rejoicing, and exploring, I feel like I need a lot of time to myself, to organize my thoughts and retrieve inner equilibrium. I'm not usually this outgoing and active, and while I certainly love it and am fully capable of thriving this way, I need to balance myself. When I'm at home, or I should say, when I feel most myself, I have a very stable feeling of knowing who I am and where I'm going with whatever I'm doing. I feel calm and collected. And I'm getting back there, slowly, but it's going to take a little more of me sitting peacefully in my room, organizing my space, and just taking some time to slow back down. When I reach that familiar velocity, I think I can enjoy France even more, which is mind-boggling to me, because I already love it from amid this psychic chaos.